IT'S NOT OVER!
I have sat at this desk a million times. Sometimes with excitement. Other times with tears and despair. Sometimes we aren't sure what we want or what we need, but we are clear that where we are just isn't enough. That was me 5 years ago. That's when I opened my first store front. It was time to give myself a shot. That was also how I felt two years ago when I decided it was an awesome journey , but it still wasn't quite where my story would end.
Today I sit here at 4:37 AM typing this letter with such gratitude.I'm shedding tears also. Different tears. I am listening to It Ain't Over by Maurette Brown Clark and I know this to be true. I don't want another person in this world to give up on themselves or their dreams because it is hard or they are uncertain. Over the last several months, I have been preparing myself for this very moment without even knowing it. Doing the heart work, shutting out the noise, letting things go that are no longer a fit, and honoring your highest calling, are tasks that require commitment and time.
What is popular and shiny is typically just one side of the coin. You can either keep searching for answers to soothe your soul or you can look within. There comes a time when what you are yearning for is way more important than taking a quick glimpse. You literally begin examining your soul and asking yourself the tough questions that require you to uncover the ugliness, the pain, the grief and let it out. That is what I decided to do and while it was the hardest thing I have ever done, it has been worth it. I am so excited to see where this next chapter leads. It already feels amazing.
My greater is not coming because it is already here. I have learned to speak in the present. I have learned that we create our reality. No longer one day but TODAY. Today I share my journey with you. The Power of Peace in a Pause will release next month and you can order your own copy today. I am so excited to see what is to come but to be honest with you, this very moment, this moment as I type my thoughts and know that I made it through one of the scariest and unpredictable chapters of my life when I literally shut everything out that felt so familiar, this just feels awesome right here. This wasn't about becoming an author. This journey was personal. I just hope it helps others keep going until they discover all that is buried inside because that is where I found my greatest gifts. I promise you will discover something that you never even knew was waiting for you to uncover it. You are worth the time it takes to find it. I'm rooting for you. Please share your thoughts with me below. It's been way too long :)
Blessings to you and yours.
Shine Bright Unapologetically